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What's happening: I’ve been deep in recovery and deep in my feelings — and this week, love is on my mind. The real, unglamorous, 15-year kind.
What you'll find here: My honest reflection on what a long-term relationship actually looks like, the beliefs about love I’ve had to unlearn, and why I’ve come to think boring is one of the best things a relationship can be.
The real talk: Love in real life looks nothing like what we were sold. And somehow, it’s so much better.
Valentine’s Day has come and gone, pero I’ve still got love on my mind — so bear with me for one more week.
I’ve been with my partner for almost 15 years (wild)! We met in high school, did seven years of long distance, and then made the terrifying, wonderful decision to close the gap and move in together. And I want to tell you something about our relationship that took me years to fully appreciate:
It is delightfully, beautifully boring.
Not boring in the way that something has gone wrong. Boring in the way that our best days look like both of us in pajamas, half-watching something on TV, our dogs curled up between us, not saying much at all. No grand gestures. No dramatic declarations. Just two people sharing a space without effort.
I grew up watching telenovelas and somewhere along the way I absorbed this idea that love was supposed to feel like that. Urgent. Intense. A little chaotic. If it wasn’t dramatic, maybe it wasn’t real.
It took me a long time to unlearn that. And to be clear — we’ve had our seasons. Moments that tested us, stretched us, required hard conversations and real work. But even our hard seasons haven’t looked like the telenovela version of hard. No drama, no toxicity. Just two people figuring out how to communicate better, grow individually, and come back to each other stronger. That, I’ve learned, is its own kind of love story.
15 years with someone doesn’t just change your relationship. It changes you. And sometimes those changes crack open things you didn’t even know needed.
This recovery season has been the most vulnerable I’ve ever felt in my relationship. In the early days after surgery, he was bathing me. Bringing me food. Tracking my medications and vitamins with a precision I could not muster myself. And I — someone who learned independence early, who has always carried her own weight — fell apart a little trying to accept it.
Because I believe I have to earn love.
Not consciously. Not proudly. But it’s there. This quiet, persistent idea that love is a transaction, that I hold up my side by doing — by cleaning the house, caring for our dogs, contributing, producing, functioning. And when surgery took all of that away? I felt the terror of it. Like I was failing at something fundamental. Like I wasn’t holding up my end of the bargain.
He has never once made me feel that way. That’s important to say. This is not his story — it’s mine. A pattern that lived in me long before I met him, one I’m still in the process of unlearning.
Our relationship is also, by a lot of cultural measures, unconventional.
I’m the primary breadwinner. In my culture, that comes with opinions. I’ve heard the whispers, felt the sideways looks — the implication that somehow he’s being carried, that I’m not being taken care of the way a woman should be.
I reject that. Completely.
He met me and loved me before the career, the finances, and the success. He stood by me through all my iterations and so many of the lows. We’ve built a relationship where we both play multiple roles depending on what the moment needs — and right now, he’s playing a role I usually hold. He’s taking care of things so I can focus on healing.
That’s partnership.
And the fact that it looks different from what our families modeled doesn’t make it less. If anything, building something new — something that actually fits us — is one of the things I’m most proud of.
I’m sharing all of this not because I have it figured out. I’m very much in the middle of unlearning old stories about what I deserve, what I have to earn, and what love actually looks like when it’s quiet and steady and real.
But I wanted to put this out into the world in case any part of it resonates — because if there’s one thing I’ve learned in almost 15 years, it’s that love in real life looks nothing like what we were sold. And somehow, it’s so much better.